The Person I Can No Longer Be

We are now 11 months into this pandemic’s direct impact on our daily life. I told my 11-year-old the other day that we are “living history” right now. Some day, entire textbooks and documentaries will be produced about the year 2020 and beyond. I compared it to how World Wars I and II stretched on for years, with no particular end in sight at the time.

As if “living history” is supposed to be some sort of consolation for the havoc this pandemic has wreaked on our lives.

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The Christmas “Shake It Off”

My 11-year-old likes to run around in the backyard. Almost every single day, he’ll announce, “I’m going outside!” and grab his coat. Our backyard is oddly shaped and not flat. He’ll run – back and forth, back and forth – between two trees on the uneven terrain. Says he needs to “think and get my energy out.”

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Knowing When Something is Off

2020-03-05 Knowing When Something is Off

Photo by Ben Blennerhassett on Unsplash

A few weeks ago, I felt like my heart was racing and I could not get calmed down.  I know the exact date: February 14th.  Valentine’s Day.  The day after Iris’s birthday.

Ger and I had spent part of the day in Chicago, having lunch.  On the drive back out to the suburbs, I felt it.  Like I could not catch my breath.  It was odd, since I had no reason to be upset or nervous – in fact, we had just spent a lovely morning together.  I brushed it off, wondering if perhaps I was getting sick. Continue reading